Mystics say, you are emptyness, yet you are one with the world. Here’s the rationale behind that claim.

Some mystics say that you can’t find yourself in the world, that whatever you think is you, is not you.

Whereas, some others might say (often the same ones) that, you are one with everything. Everything is you. There is no divide.

Well both of those viewpoints are right.

It all depends on the lens you use to see everything.

You see, we often see the world with an objective lens, while using a subjective one to experience the inner realm. That is where the ‘illusion of division’ starts. See the world with an objective lens, and there is no difference betweens things that happen inside your body, and the things that happen outside of your body. It’s all objects, atoms, particles, reactions and energy.

Well, use a subjective lens and everything is now just another object in the ocean of your consciousness. Your thoughts, the walls in your room, the sensations of your breath, the sound of water dropping… Where’s the divide?

Again, only when you say that your thoughts and senses are your subjective experience whereas the walls in your room are objects, you start seeing a division. But that is like using Celsius scale to measure the temperature of one thing and then using Farenhite to measure the temperature of another thing of the same temperature, and saying that they have different temperatures because the readings in different scales don’t match. Not a very sane way of deduction, is it?

So next time you open your eyes after some meditative moments, try to keep the subjective view of things as you take in the outside world. See how similar your experience is for both your inner realm and the world outside you. Is there any difference in the way you experience the voice inside your head and the voice of someone else?

What is the Purpose of My Life? (Part 2)

Story 1:

Death is certain, life is meaningless. We are running on borrowed time and might die at any moment. We don’t take anything with us. Soon, we won’t even exist.

Well that’s one story. We can choose to tell a different one. Maybe a more apt description is- we can tell the same story from a different angle.

Story 2:

Somehow big bang happened. Laws of physics started to reign supreme. Time began. Things condensed and stars, planets etc appeared. One planet got some acid and stuff that can pass its data to the next generation. Natural selection took in charge. Soon there were life everywhere. Humans appeared. They have feelings and everything else, things that the other animals have. But they also think. Which is simply learning from the past and planning for the future.

But, some of them started suffering from their haunted past or glorious past they no longer have (or stand to lose) and worrying about the future.

This defeats the purpose of learning and planning. We learn and plan to make our experience of the world better. Latching on to the past just produces unnecessary suffering. Worrying about the future is wrong as death is our future. Entropy is real. Everything, even life will be taken away from us. All we truly have is the present moment. And the lessons from our past and our ability to plan for the future.

This makes us human.

If the purpose of a shoe is to shield it’s owner’s feet from the ground and the purpose of a  dog is to be a dog, our purpose is to learn from the past and plan for the future. While we live in the moment.

They aren’t at odds with each others. The lessons aren’t in the past, they are with us now. They plans aren’t in the future- they are here with us right now. Now is when we apply the lessons and take action for the future. Life is now.

Then I conclude, the purpose of my life is to live in the moment while I apply lessons from the past and take proper action for the future. Because we can. Because this is our feature. The purpose of a pen is to write because- it can write. That’s its best feature.

Do I like this purpose? Well mostly no. I’d rather contribute to something that would last forever. But sadly, we haven’t come across any such thing that needs my help. Like, laws of physics may last forever, but how to I contribute towards it? It doesn’t need my help!

Who am I?

I was watching Shelly Kagan’s lectures on Death. It raised questions in my mind about who I really am.

Am I a soul? my brain? My personality?

I can feel 3 kinds of things existing inside me. First, I see my current thoughts and feelings.Then I see my memories. beliefs, attitude etc which are the building blocks of my personality.

There’s something else of course. The witness/ watcher.

Without this entity in me, I wouldn’t even be aware of my current thoughts and feelings.

I guess this is what Eckhart Tolle calls presence and other teachers call consciousness.

My first inclination is to regard this ‘watcher’ in me as the real me.

This part after all, has been the single most consistent thing that exists withing me.

My thoughts are random and often contradict each other. Same characteristics apply to my feelings. My personality on the other hand has changed at least 3 times since I have been alive. Only the watcher is untouched.

But, what differentiates my awareness with your one? We all have this awareness but isn’t it the same for all of us?

If I have a head trauma and lose the continuity of my experience, the watcher is still there.

But, my thoughts, feelings and personality will be drastically different. In that case, is it still me?

I am unable to answer that yet. I seem to feel like my awareness is me as long as there is continuity of experience. If my brain loses all of its memories then that will be the death of me. The watcher that used to identify with me will now serve someone else’s experiences.

But even that explanation sounds wrong. How can my awareness ever be someone else? If all about me is my personality then I could be extracted as data and uploaded to the cloud. But, is all that data (memories, beliefs etc) me? That doesn’t sound right!

I can’t recommend ‘The power of now’ enough!

If I had to pick only one book as a lifelong companion, it’d be ‘The power of now’ by ‘Eckhart Tolle’.

Like wine, this book gets better as it ages. I’ve had this for almost seven years now. Throughout all those years, the book has shaped me in the best possible ways.

For, anyone interested in spirituality, ‘The power of now’ is the comprehensive beginner’s guide. For those who are anxious or depressed, this book could give some practical solutions.

Here are some invaluable gems I got out of this book. Enjoy!

  1. Time isn’t real:

It isn’t a philosophical statement which is subject to individual judgement. Time literally does not exist. We made it up for convenience. When we think of the past, we do that now. Same goes to the future.

  1. Inner Body awareness:

It is said that, Jesus ascended to heaven with his body. He never abandoned it. This saying marks the time period when humans started seeing the body as less of a hindrance to spirituality and more of an ally.

Inner body awareness is a great practice to not lose yourself amidst the chaos of life. Eckhart Tolle dedicated a whole chapter towards the inner body and talks about how your body could be a great vessel for being more present. If you are looking for an app to help you with inner body practices, I suggest Headspace. It has a whole different section about getting in touch with the body, and its really good.

  1. Sound as a portal for presence:

Sound and silence, both can be great pointers to help us be more present. Listen to the various types of sound around you. Focus, and you will feel more present. An even better exercise is to listen to the silence. This will calm your mind down.

  1. Anger management:

As a young adult, I used to complain a lot and get angry at my parents all the time. But as I kept practicing inner body awareness, I started to catch myself whenever I would start getting angry, I am calmer and more peaceful. If anger doesn’t serve a purpose, we have the choice to let it go. Mindfulness practices enable us to exercise that choice.

  1. Your emotions are not ‘You’:

I’ve come to realize that my emotions are just chemical reactions inside my body. They influence my mood and fuel my thoughts. But they are not me. I don’t have to act upon them. I am not sad, I feel sad. I am not lazy; I just have a habit of laziness.

Obviously, I highly recommend this book to anyone. The world would be a better place if more people got some control over their ego. At a time when we are so disconnected with reality that we are ruining our own home planet and waging war against own species, this book is a must read to regain some sanity.

 

How ‘living in the present moment’ deals with goal setting and procrastination

 

PAST and FUTURE veil God from our sight; burn up both of them with fire

– Rumi

Spiritual gurus tell us that our constant thoughts about past and future are what keeps the ego real.

As I learned from Eckhart Tolle, the root of our suffering is identification with ego and what keeps this going is believing that the past and future is real.

But what about goals? What about ambition? How does spirituality deal with procrastination?

As I mostly follow Eckhart Tolle, I looked if he had anything to say about this. I found this video that was very helpful. If you don’t have the time to watch that video now let me summarize it here: Whatever goal or ambition you have in your mind, it exists in the present moment. It is not an future event. It is rather a thought in your mind, here and now. You can follow that thought, work towards making that thought into a reality, without worrying about the future. Then again, there’s nothing wrong with thinking about the future. You can do that for all types of practical reasons, like planning, scheduling etc. Just, have some attention in the present moment. Don’t lose yourself there.

Additional help

Here are two answers I found in a reddit post that sheds some light on the topic:

Answer 1:

“Procrastination” is the kind of word that people like to learn, because it gives a name to the various complex forms of avoidance, reluctance, lethargy, depression, distraction, and whatever else that they experience in conjunction with the things they think they need to do.

If there are no obvious reasons why you don’t want to do the thing you are supposed to do, then one could suggest that even thinking about procrastination and seeking a cure for “procrastination” as if it were a disease—is all just more procrastination… And that’s exactly what you don’t want to hear!

It might be interesting to think about what the things have in common which make you prone to procrastination.

The things I procrastinate with: paying bills, buying groceries and cooking food, doing uninteresting things that are on my calendar.

What do they have in common? They seem to be things that come at me from outside forces, instead of being things that I feel internally compelled to do. They also have semi-vague deadlines and are possible to postpone. These factors combine and make it so that there never seems to be any pressing, urgent, tangible reason to do them right now instead of at some later point when I will hypothetically feel more motivated.

The thing is that the hypothetical future time of increased motivation is very likely to never arrive.

Also, the more I postpone these tasks, the more I associate them in my neural pathways with the feeling of not wanting to do them, to the point where picking up my bank login gadget begins to feel in my mind like a Herculean task.

Unless you have some severe ADD or something, I think the only real solution is to realize that life—actual, moment-by-moment life as a person in the actually existing reality—is often boring and gray and stupid, and that this is just how it is, and then to just go along with it and say: Yes! I will live my boring, stupid life, just like all the other boring people throughout the history of humanity!

From the Pale King by David Foster Wallace:

“Gentlemen, here is a truth: Enduring tedium over real time in a confined space is what real courage is…. True heroism is minutes, hours, weeks, year upon year of the quiet, precise, judicious exercise of probity and care—with no one there to see or cheer.”

“The truth is that the heroism of your childhood entertainments was not true valor. It was theatre. The grand gesture, the moment of choice, the mortal danger, the external foe, the climactic battle whose outcome resolves all—all designed to appear heroic, to excite and gratify and audience. Gentlemen, welcome to the world of reality—there is no audience. No one to applaud, to admire. No one to see you. Do you understand? Here is the truth—actual heroism receives no ovation, entertains no one. No one queues up to see it. No one is interested.”

And:

“To me, at least in retrospect, the really interesting question is why dullness proves to be such a powerful impediment to attention. Why we recoil from the dull. Maybe it’s because dullness is intrinsically painful; maybe that’s where phrases like ‘deadly dull’ or ‘excruciatingly dull’ come from. But there might be more to it. Maybe dullness is associated with psychic pain because something that’s dull or opaque fails to provide enough stimulation to distract people from some other, deeper type of pain that is always there, if only in an ambient low-level way, and which most of us spend nearly all our time and energy trying to distract ourselves from feeling, or at least from feeling directly or with our full attention. Admittedly, the whole thing’s pretty confusing, and hard to talk about abstractly…but surely something must lie behind not just Muzak in dull or tedious places anymore but now also actual TV in waiting rooms, supermarkets’ checkouts, airports’ gates, SUVs’ backseats. Walkman, iPods, Blackberries, cell phones that attach to your head. The terror of silence with nothing diverting to do. I can’t think anyone really believes that today’s so-called ‘information society’ is just about information. Everyone knows it’s about something else, way down.”

And yet also:

“It turns out that bliss—a second-by-second joy + gratitude at the gift of being alive, conscious—lies on the other side of crushing, crushing boredom. Pay close attention to the most tedious thing you can find (tax returns, televised golf), and, in waves, a boredom like you’ve never known will wash over you and just about kill you. Ride these out, and it’s like stepping from black and white into color. Like water after days in the desert. Constant bliss at every atom.”

“It is the key to modern life. If you are immune to boredom, there is literally nothing you cannot accomplish.”

Every time you’re faced with the knowledge that you will have to do the Boring Thing at some point, it’s an opportunity to stare in the eyes of tedium and say “I’m not afraid of you,” and then go and simply do it. There may not be a special yogic trick that will make it exciting and colorful in precisely the way you want it to be. But when you sit down and do it… You’re doing it. And that’s something!

 

Answer 2:

There are several causes behind procrastination, and the “advice” that tends to crop up around it relies on clichés and catch phrases, and usually misses the mark.

I too have been a procrastinator, and I want to add a couple of dimensions to the situation that helped me. Hopefully they can help you.

First off, the regular practice of meditation helped me a lot with my overall focus. Even with the bare minimum of 5 minutes every morning really helped my calm my mind down, and learned to re-focus. I recommend more, of course. Whenever I get in my zone, I am more able to stay in the present and dedicate more attention to whatever it is I am working on. It sounds to me like you have hit a bit of a wall with your own practice, though. I hope you find your way back to it.

Anyway, thing is, so far, meditation had done little for my motivation.

So, as I continue to learn more from the dharma, and I begin to incorporate every facet of the noble eightfold path into how I conduct my life, I have begun to feel a change in how I interact, especially with things that are obligations required of me from the outside (as opposed to fun things I naturally find engaging or entertaining). Especially within the context of “no self”.

So, the idea lately has been one of full engagement with whatever it is that lays before me. I am a part of it all, as we all are. If I no longer see myself as a victim, or a buyer, or a seller, or trying to find fairness, or anything like that. If you can let go of expectations and wanting, then all that there is left is that pervasive sense of interconnectedness. That has helped me A LOT lately

 

 

Buddhism as described in ‘Sapiens’ by ‘Yuval Noah Harari’

The central figure of Buddhism is not a god but a human being, Siddhartha Gautama. According to Buddhist tradition, Gautama was heir to a small Himalayan Kingdom, sometime around 500 BC. The young prince was deeply affected by the suffering evident all around him. He saw that men and women, children and old people, all suffer not just from occasional calamities such as war and plague, but also from anxiety, frustration and discontent, all of which seem to be an inseparable part of the human condition. People, pursue wealth and power, acquire knowledge and possessions, beget sons and daughters, and build houses and palaces. Yet no matter what they achieve, they are never content. Those who live in poverty dream of riches. Those who have a million want wo million. Those who have two million want 10 million. Even the rich and famous are rarely satisfied. They too are haunted by ceaseless cares and worries until sickness, old age and death put a bitter end to them. Everything that one has accumulated vanishes like smoke. Life is a pointless rat race. But how to escape it?

… In the end he came to the realization that suffering is not caused by ill fortune, by social injustice or by divine whims. Rather, suffering is caused by the behavior patterns of one’s own mind. Gautama’s insight was that no matter what the mind experience, it usually reacts with craving, and craving always involves dissatisfaction. When the mind experiences something distasteful it craves to be rid of the irritation. When the mind experiences something pleasant. it craves that the pleasure will remain and will intensify. Therefore, the mind is always dissatisfied and restless. This is very clear when we experience unpleasant things, such as pain. As long as the pain continues, we are dissatisfied and do all we can to avoid it. Yet, even when we experience pleasant things, we are never content. We either fear he pleasure might disappear, or we hope that it will intensify. People dream for years about finding love are rarely satisfied when they find it. Some become anxious that their partner will leave, others feel that they have settled cheaply, and could have found someone better…

… Gautama found that there was a way to wait this vicious circle. If, when the mind experiences something pleasant or unpleasant, it simply understands things just as they are, then there is no suffering. If you experience sadness without the craving hat it goes away, you continue to feel sadness but you do not suffer from it. There can actually be richness in the sadness. If you experience joy without craving that the joy lingers and intensifies, you continue to feel joy without losing your peace of mind.

…Buddhism shares he basic insight of the biological approach to happiness, namely that happiness results from processes occurring within one’s body, and not from events in the outside world. However, starting from the same insight, Buddhism reaches very different conclusions.

According to Buddhism, most people identify happiness with pleasant feelings. People consequently ascribe immense importance to what they feel, craving to experience more and more pleasures, while avoiding pain. Whatever we do throughout our lives, whether scratching our leg, fidgeting slightly in the chair, or fighting world wars, we are just trying to get pleasant feelings.

The problem, according to Buddhism is that our feelings are no more than fleeting vibrations, changing every moment, like the ocean waves. If five minutes age I felt joyful and purposeful, now these feelings are gone, and I might well feel sad and dejected. So, if I want to experience pleasant feelings, I have to constantly chase them, while driving away the unpleasant feelings. Even if I succeed, I immediately have to start all over again, without ever getting any lasting rewards for my troubles.

…Buddha agreed with modern biology and new age movements that happiness is independent of eternal condition. Yet his more important and for more profound insight was that their happiness is also independent of or inner feelings. Indeed, the more significance we give our feelings, the more we crave them and the more we suffer. Buddha’s recommendation was to stop not only the pursuit of external achievement s, but also the pursuit of inner feelings.